you ever get the feeling..
You know! That feeling? I was explaining to JJ about how some songs have the wheat field effect. It sounds strange, and I guess it is, because he didn't hear of it (and he laughed at me). The wheat field effect is when you listen to a really upbeat, cool song and you close your eyes and imagine yourself running through a wheat field. I know....it sounds strange, but it's fun way to waste time. (sidenote to JJ: It didn't quite turn out as funny as we had made it out to be)Since I devoted part of my time to writing about fields of wheat and daydreaming, I might as well go into the more serious part of my post. As I said before, I was going to write about something that drew forth the very name of controversy. However, I have nixed that idea in favor of something more melancholic. I have popped in my Frou Frou cd, so you know what that means....or maybe you don't. In any matter, what I am about to say may shock you....or maybe even cause seizures, like Pokemon.
How can you change something that can't be changed? Is there a way to go back in time to reverse the effects of something that weighs on you every single day? If there was some way, I would have gone already. I know that God has every single second of my life planned out for me, but am I content? Actually, I am not. But, that is because I don't see the bigger picture for my life. I don't have the scope that God does, and it only upsets me more to be reminded of that fact day in and day out. I have never told anyone this before, but I get upset when someone trys to console me about these things. Why? Because I know they are right, but I am unwilling to listen. Being stubborn is something I hate being, because I don't go quietly when told to. I fight. I'm fighting right now. Fighting back these feelings, fighting against loss, and fighting back the realities of how my life plays the same tune, over and over. Right now, I am just fighting back sleep...
-luke
posted by brodie @ 2:37 AM
1 Comments:
The fields of wheat thing is still kinda funny :)
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